Tis the season of insanity...

The happiest time of year is also the most insane...shopping, cooking, food, parties, constantly ringing phone, running around like a chicken with my head cut off! I've already typed about this before but it truly is the way I'm feeling right now and its messing with everything.
I have had a much better week - 10x better than the past two. I even sat down on Sunday night and wrote myself a little letter on & read through it every day this week - well at least Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. It helped and the stress & pressure is much better. I'm also working on oozing with positivity! Trying to give myself a break I guess. I'm pretty hard on myself so this past week, if I was running a little late, I didn't freak out or get extra stressed or yell at my kids for not moving fast enough (poor Colton) Instead, I took a deep breath and let it go.
My workouts have been great like I said earlier this week, I hit my running challenge and that is a reason to celebrate a hi-5 moment!
I didn't have such a hi-5 moment when I went into Physicians Weight Loss Center yesterday. I really felt all week like I was melt away. I'm down one more hole in my belt loop so I was excited to weigh in. Well - not only did I gain some weight (.6 lbs) but I gained a full pound of fat and that is making me sick and also freaking me out! Unfortunately I missed Lisa (the owner of PWLC) I should have let her know I was coming in when I did, but her hubby and chiropractor, Dr. Pat, weighed me in. He's a great guy, but I told him it was his fault - just kidding. He said that I shouldn't worry too much, just stick to the diet and don't cheat. But I didn't cheat!!!
I may have eaten a larger amount of food on Wednesday, but it was all clean. When we had our family Christmas party on Wednesday night and all I ate was shredded chicken and raw veggies. I didn't even nibble on a cookie. So that it was is freaking me OUT! I guess I will take a deep breathe and see what comes of Monday. I will definitely let you know what the scale says on Monday. And I was going to have a bloody mary at my husband's Christmas party tonight. Not anymore................

I really am trying to ooze with positivity! Hate to be a Debbie Downer!