And I truly mean that. I met with a good friend last week and I had to be honest with her about how I felt. I really wasn’t feeling “it”. It didn’t feel like a new year, I didn’t have the drive that I had at the beginning of 2010 and I was just off a bit.
It could have been two things going on. First, I haven’t been eating well at all since probably a week or so before Christmas. I’ve been eating whatever I want and drinking more than usually too, I’ve got this thing for wine. Second, I also have been suffering from a cold that was kicking my butt.
Christmas came and went, and New Year’s came and went and I didn’t see the fire building in me like I did last year. Very strange. I was telling my friend that I don’t have a bad attitude or anything just don’t have the drive and fire that I did last year at the time.
Of course, at this time last year, I was preparing for a huge event called the Snow BIZaar. Since then, I have stopped producing my publication, the Local BIZ and I’m not doing the Snow BIZaar in 2012. I have decided to really focus on my passions which are design and working out. I will still be organizing the Yellowstone Trail Road Race and that will be on Saturday, June 23 (mark your calendars!) And of course, I will continue to build my design business, ASIL Design.
This week (Jan. 9th) things seem different already. First off, I’ve stuck to a much stricter diet and workout regiment and second, I can feel that drive building! I’ve already had some new business come my way by noon on Monday that made me feel so much better. So yeah me!
Now let’s go back to the diet…I guess I was kind of doing a little experiment on myself. I decided to layoff on the strictness of my diet and just eat what I wanted too and drink when I wanted to but still work out and still drink lots of water. The result, I felt like crap. I was groggy and bloated and sluggish. Very interesting…my thighs started getting thicker and like I said before, I just felt like crap. I was still getting compliments on how I am looking these days and even got a scolding about being too hard on myself. I agree, I am hard on myself, but if I’m not, than who is going to be???
So why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we eat the foods that make us feel this way?
Since last Monday, January 2nd, I’ve started to eat much better. I’ve stayed away from starchy carbs and went back to the protein, veggie, fruit and dairy diet. I'm still stuck on the coffee and latte thing, but have successfully stayed away from mochas. I will continue to stick to this program and continue running good miles (I'm training for a 1/2 marathon in March) and I will report back soon on how I feel!
I'm also going into weigh in tomorrow, it will be a true test to my self destruction over December. Wish me luck!
